Some Things Are So Bittersweet

I was listening to this song Paul Westerberg does, "Mr. Rabbit." (It was written by Burl Ives.) That song was the anthem of this past Spring for me. I was singing that song, listening to it, all of that. Now, when I listen to it, it makes me feel better about the future, but at the same time, there is this longing for the past. For the past week or so, things have really been in turmoil in my life. No, the past week is when all the turmoil that has built up over the past years exploded and it was terrible. But, I now know (er, hope [please Jesus]) that things will straighten up sooner than what I originally thought. I just hope they do. I have been worrying myself into a blur over this. Anyway, here is a link for that song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=409DBKlLsLo

I just miss my Caleb.

Something Nice

Have you ever had someone in your life that you know you just can't live without? It doesn't have to be Mother or anyone in particular. Just someone who brightens your day the second you see them, or hear their voice.

I'll tell you a little about my "someone." He is so sweet and cute, and does these things that he thinks are just run-of-the-mill, but which are really quite endearing. He thinks so little of himself, but I think so much of him. We might fight and we might fuss sometimes, but we both know it's not a reflection of how we really feel about one another. I hope he is reading this, and I hope it makes him feel better, because he's been having a rough go of it lately. :) Hopefully he will get the message-I love, love, LOVE him!!!

Just Great

It is so hard to try and be a good person whenever everything in your life just seems to get screwed up on a daily basis. I was doing really well, but when you are screwed up to begin with and then just little things can send your castle crashing down, well... it's just dandy. Wonderful. Then, all the cuss words you quit saying, all the meanness you quit showing and feeling, all the despair that was pushed away by optimism-it all comes out and it's really ugly.
It's hard to smell like a rose when you are standing in sewage.

Etc. II (I think)

Well, it has been a while. I have read a book that makes me mad and I am reading one that I actually like now. I'll tell you about the one that makes me mad. Everyone seems to find it more Intriguing and Interesting and Deliciously Scandalous! if you accentuate the negative and then give a very hodge-podge attempt to accentuate the positive afterward just so that you feel this much ----------- better about yourself, when in reality you have made yourself this much - better.

Now, about the book.

The Giver, by Lois Lowry.

Very aggravating to read. You want to seize the characters from their comfortable, little compressed and dried tree pulp and ink homes and SHAKE them. They are so stupidly satisfied with their pathetic lives which are supposed to be "perfect" that it is absolutely MADDENING. They kill babies. They kill old people. They kill people who break a few petty rules. They look the same. They dress the same. They eat the same food. The "couples" do not actually kiss or engage in any physically intimate relations whatsoever. They do not actually have their own kids. Their hormones are stifled out at an early age so that they become virtually asexual. There is more, but I am running short on time, so I can't write it. Not to say that it is a bad book, though. It has a good ending, at least. And that's what matters, right? If you have a good journey, only to end it by falling in a pit of fire with evil dragons and all that, then it just sucks. If you have a bad journey, then end it by meeting that special someone, winning a million dollars and all that, then good, very, very good. Awesome, even.

Well, that's about it. Yay. Have a nice day. :) Get all seventies on that, man. haha
*If you don't get that, then look up on Google the origin of the "Have a nice day [insert smiley face]" thing.

Well, Wonderful

Don't you just love the attitude some people have? They are angered by others' happiness and try to ruin it simply because they can. How great. I hate it when people are two-faced. There are people in my life who should have the guts to tell me what they think of me to my face instead of being nice and waiting until I am gone to say mean things about me.

As much as I try to be nice to people, you would think they could at least return the favour. But, of course, they can't. I hate it when they are so controlling. That is something that really makes me mad. Everyone has a life. Their very own life. It is theirs, not to be subject to harsh dogma from merely another person. Of course, the government is a controlling factor that is reasonable. They don't control every aspect of your life, though, at least, not in America.

Whenever a person, like your mom, spouse, friends, or siblings, etc. tries to dictate in a Hitler-like fashion every detail of your life, that gets to be a bit much. So, if you would like to have your children, spouse, family, friends and everyone else in your life hate you with a passion, then try to control them completely. It's the soap-bar reaction. The tighter the grip you have, the more it slips away, whereas, if you just gently hold it, it will stay right nice, there in the palm of your hand.

Been A While....

It's been a long time, been a long time, been a long, lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely time.
Oh well. A lot has changed in the 11 months I haven't written. And it has changed for the better. I have something to live for now. Rather, I have someone. And I don't have as much meanness from everyone, except one person, who knows who they are.
I hope anyone who may be reading this will have something to smile about today, or tomorrow, hopefully there'll be a little something everyday. Every person needs to have a little smiley-smile moment every day.
I don't know what else to write.
Oh!!! I have a few listening suggestions, again.
Rave On by Buddy Holly
I Got Stripes by Johnny Cash
Yoda by Weird Al Yankovich
Well, hope you'll like one of those.